Meditation and more

Meditation group was great! I don't quite know what I expected but it wasn't a beardy-weirdy hippie spiritual ommmm thing. I wasn't very good at it, but that's ok, and I felt quite refreshed afterwards. I will be going back next week.

I have a job interview this week and I am quite excited. I think my chances will be slim, but it's worth a shot. Just a case of "wait and see". It's also in the area I eventually want to buy, so it would help me kill two birds with one stone.

I have now lost 15kg and have 10kg to go. Mixed feelings here, and as I was saying to a fitness freak colleague, what happens if I get to my goal and I'm not satisfied with my body? Does it then become a source of unhappiness and obsession? He was pretty philosophical about it though, saying that even if that happens I will be physically healthier. He also had some tips for exercises, which I didn't promise to do, but I said I'd think about it. I'm being quite strict about having only two meals a day and I know that's not great for my ongoing mood. I think I just cling to the fact that soon I will find a better job and be a bit less gloomy.

Just as a note of interest, here on the right is what came in the mail to me from a personal loan company that I had enquired with some time ago. 535.3% interest. And "subject to affordability" means "is able to afford to pay £500 per month - in interest charges ALONE." Not even joking. How this is legal is beyond my comprehension. The only people who'd take this on either don't understand what they're being signed up to, haven't the mental capacity to be trusted with money, or are in such desperation that a payday loan won't fix things.

The company has kindly agreed to take me off their mailing list.